Why am I feeling like such a hypocrite lately? I thought I could do this on my own…but then can I really?
Things were going very well for me, I was feeling a great inner happiness and peace because I was praying daily and reading the Bible. Going to church was really uplifting and I was really taking in the message God was giving me. I was outspoken about my beliefs and felt that I was trying to be a good example of a Christian.
As time went on, the daily Bible readings and daily prayers were getting less and less a priority, and sleeping in on Sundays felt pretty good. My poor excuse was that I had been working a new business, and was too tired…no excuse! Then slowly I felt like I was losing what actually made me so happy to begin with…the close connection to God’s greatness, along with the discussions from the Bible and about God’s direction at church. I felt like the Holy Spirit wasn’t working within to keep me on the right path, which had been the only true satisfying path.
Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. Matthew 11:28-29 KJV
I have friends and family that really didn’t understand what Christianity is about, and I had been discussing the truth to them before I, myself started slipping away from the best way of life I’ve had which involves having faith in God, loving to live the way I should, and to be a good example for others. Instead I was finding myself getting into a lifestyle that didn’t include God as much, and then I was a total hypocrite for even trying to discuss Christianity with them at all. I then have become so stressed and depressed about my shortcomings, I felt worthless!
Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth. 2 Timothy 2:15 KJV
Therefore, recently I asked God for forgiveness and another chance. Thankfully, I’m already feeling like I’m getting on the right track again, including making a point of attending church regularly.
I feel that church is a way to recharge your batteries and if you stay away too long you get weak, and forget about the goals that you need for your life. It’s about honoring God and keeping in mind what his purpose is, and to truly appreciate and be thankful for all that he does in your life.
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I had what you would call a religious up bringing. Basically, as children we were taught The 10 Commandments at a very tender age. In fact the 10 commandments have played such a large role in my life that I cannot remember exactly when I first learned them. I remember having to learn them by heart for Sunday school, but that was more of trying to remember what order the 10 commandments came in rather than mastering what they were.
Because the 10 commandments have practically been a part of my life since I was a little child, I have not spent much time contemplating on them. As with so many aspects of my faith I have just accepted the 10 commandments as given, as a fact of life, as if they had been there forever. I have spent more time pondering them recently due to the media attention of having the 10 commandments displayed in public buildings. I had to shed my previous assumptions and review exactly what the 10 commandments are and why someone may be offended seeing them in print. I had to stop and reflect if I had just accepted without questions something that may be offensive just because it has always been there in my life.
After thinking about each of the 10 commandments I have arrived at the conclusion that for me they are not offensive. I would not feel discriminated against or violated in any way seeing them in print. The message with each of them is transparent to me and in general I feel they provide me with a good guide on how to conduct my life in a decent and courteous way. I respect others’ rights to have differing beliefs and embrace the fact that not everyone has the same set of beliefs that I have. In fact I think life would be boring if we did all think the same and had the same beliefs. Without diversity, life would not have all those multi-color charm and exoticness.
I have to admit that trying to recall the 10 commandments in the right order was a true test of memory. I could remember all of them but trying to get the middle ones in the right order was quite a challenge. I mentioned this to my husband and he could not understand why being in a particular order mattered at all. I thought he had a good point that it was not really important what order I remember them in or what exact wording I used to articulate them, it was the core idea underlining each of the 10 commandments that was the true meaningful message that we are to take to heart.
Although I comprehend that we are not all from the same belief system, I still cannot understand why someone would be offended by seeing the 10 commandments in print. There are many billboards and bus advertisements out there that I find disagreeable or offensive, but I know there are others who have opposing opinions. If I find something offensive I try to look at something that is more appealing to me. We do not all need to believe the same things and in order to co-exist , we do not even need to understand each others beliefs, we just need to learn tolerance. Hey, maybe I just came up with the 11th commandment! In fact, it can be any number. I’ve already told you order doesn’t matter.